*screams in happyness and crys a bit*
I found a picture of my dog!!! 
I thought we didnt had any of her!!
You dont even KNOW how happy i am!! *hugs the picture and crys*

You guys might not know about this but...i had a dog..
It was a she and her name was Sira...
I loved her like a sister!
Everyday when i came home from school i went to her outside are that she had infront of the house and played with her...But...one day i came home and she had a small wound on her back...Nothing big really even the doctors sayed it wasnt bad...but...it wouldnt get better...she never stoped trying to lick or scratch it in a way...But still..the doctors sayed that it didnt hurt her as long as no one touched the wound...so yea ^.^that where good news!
But...she was old....i belive she got...8....or 9 years old...
A good and long life for a dog really!
But....we...we knew that....she well...wasnt really going to life that much longer...but....She lasted long...The doctors sayed we might lose her in the same year...
SHE LIFED FULL 2 MORE YEARS!
It was Amazing! She was strong and a brave dog!
But...well...she wouldnt get out of her dog house...my parents knew that...well..she knew she wouldnt last long...so she tryed to save as much energie as posible...
*whipes tears from actuall crying* ....
One day....i came home from school...i wanted to give her her favourit treats like always...
But when we....where driving home...My mom...
She...had this look i knew...that...something happened...something not good...
befor the last turn to out house she....she told me...that...well...Sira didnt wake up....and...that she already...was burried...behind the house in our garden...
My dad shoved me the grave...and..i instandly bursted into tears becouse...the pet...that...was like a sister to me...just....wasnt there...anymore...
Even my two cats clearly where sad...they would sit near the gave and even sleep there...my cats also loved her...very much...and they clearly where hit by this lost too...*whipes more tears away* after that day...for...a year staight...i would....go into the backyard to her grave..and just...sit there....and look at this with my cats keeping me company....i would...talk to her....like i always did...she was the only one that didnt judge me..and it...even felt like she understood everything i sayed...when i was sad....she snuggled close to me...when i was happy...she was happy with me....

i even now...sometimes go back there an....just...talk...beliving that she is still there....listening....watching over me... *looks at picture* I...i miss her...so...so much....i...i wish i...could....somehow turn time back...and....maybe...get her help....or something....or...atleast be there...while she was...well...dying...but i wasnt...i was in school...i hatet myself after that...thats where i went...depressed...i wouldnt want to meet friends....go to school...i hatet school becouse it...it was the reason i...i wasnt there for her.....i could have been there and....held her head...and...petted her...to make it better for...her........

I sometimes...think back to that time...it makes me...happy...back when she was there...she always was there for me...but...i..i wasnt there for her....i....i just fell bad about myself...but....yea...

R.I.P Sira....

I will never forget you....

well....im gonna cry for the rest of the day....